February 17th, 2020

There was a time in my life when the fog of grief and uncertainty felt this thick.  

Today, when I saw the fog rolling in over the lake, I made a detour as I headed to my shop to my favorite lake spot … just to be present in the moment as it formed.
I made my way down the trail to the waters edge.  And as I sat there, a hush fell over the lake.  There was a moment when I couldn’t tell the sky from the water.  The horizon started to blend into one.
And I remembered.
I remembered when I couldn’t tell up from down.  I couldn’t see to take even a tiny step forward.  I remembered the thick heavy weight of the fog I felt around me.  And I remembered the silence of my soul.
And in my quietness God reminded me… 

“your certainty lies not in your circumstances”
“it lies not in what you can see ahead of you”
“your direction cannot be found by making your own way”

When my vision for my future and my life was clouded with a fog this thick, I learned to depend solely and completely on the one who created my life to guide it.  The power to move in any direction was no longer mine. 
I HAD TO TRUST.
This lesson resonates with me even today as I navigate life and the future. 
I believe that even on the clear and beautiful days, God desires me to trust Him like I did when the horizon in front of me was  blurred into a haze of fog. 
Like I did when my heart was broken. 
My dreams were lost. 
And my plans destroyed.
You would think I would have it down by now.  
But I don’t.
I’m just thankful for a heart awake to the reminders and a spirit willing to keep trying.

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