2020

I’ve never been the type of girl to do things by the book.  In fact, said book doesn’t even exist and not to blow everyone’s cover, but we’re all just winging it anyway.
As a new business owner, I’ve pretty much stayed true to this way of being.  
For example :
I’d rather work as a team with my competition than try to beat them.  
I ask models if it’s ok to post pictures before I post them.  Apparently not common.
I plan a schedule around my family rather than planning my family around my schedule.   
I don’t do drama, gossip, or mean girl bull shit.  
I think people are more important than profit.  
From the perspective of many in the entrepreneur/business world, I probably don’t fit in. But - I’m ok with that.  I feel like the essence of even being an entrepreneur is to think about and do things differently than everyone else.   And, if I’m real honest, I learn best from failure anyway.  
So even if I read “said” book that doesn’t even exist and followed the rules, I still wouldn’t learn or be as successful as I am through the process of trying and failing.
Truth is, 2019 was an uphill battle.  I started this holiday break pretty numb and tired.  I allowed myself to get to the point where I was super burnt out.  After the stress of moving again, a huge set back  with my ex that damaged literally years of growth and healing,  and still adjusting to a new version of  me and new life and the change in my identity, I needed to step away from all things business related for a minute.
And in this quiet space, here’s what I’ve learned. I’m still letting go of the old me.  Figuring out if the counselor in me should remain and if so, how she looks and who she is and how she fits in to my new life.  The sales person I need to be doesn’t exist.  I don’t like how being “sales like” feels and I don’t care enough about money to care.  All I’ve ever wanted to do is make a difference.  I’ve always aspired to make others’ lives better.  And now that I am no longer a school counselor, my challenge is to figure out how to do that as an entrepreneur.  And my challenge is to learn how to do it even though money does not motivate me (because that’s the barometer for success on this side of things).
My starting point :
Asking myself these two questions : 
1 - What do I want to achieve?
2 - How will I know when I’m successful?
These are the two BIG questions I’ll be asking myself as I mediate on and envision the year of 2020.  I’ll develop a plan, but hold it loosely.  Loss taught me that one … and so as I forge forward into a new year that is my objective.  To plan for the upcoming year but to stay open to failure and potential and opportunity and so much more learning.

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